So I am taking my make-up off tonight and staring at my skin...why do I do that? I should blindfully go about my ritual, brush my teeth and get my book to read but no...I stare. Shit what happened??? I am 31 years old, relatively young in the grand scheme of things. I love the Chris Rock joke: "Fourty isn't young...it's only young if you die at 40 or if your dating Cher"hehe But I am not any where near 40! So I am young damnit, and should have young skin?!? My mom who is pushin 60 looks great for her age, she looks like a young 50ish older active woman on the go. My Grandpa is 93 looks like he's not a day over 60 and all of my Dad's side look young even when they are collecting the social security checks. So what happened?? I smoked when I was younger, maybe for about 5 years, I sit in the sun on occasion, but rarely since I also must have inherited from someone, along with the bad skin gene, the pale (you can see my blood running through my veins) skin color gene. So I tend to avoid the sun. So what happened? Four kids? Single momhood? Bad moisturizer? What? Tell me? I want to age well.. I want to be one of those women people say "Wow you have aged well", not "Damn she looks rough.
I NEVER ever have gotten a pimple before, I shit you not, in my life till I turned 30and then BAM suddenly I am a teenager, or what I am assuming a teenager has to deal with since I never got a f**kin pimple ever as a teenager. Did I mention NEVER!? I have a pimple forming on my cheek, a big red spot that is sometimes really red sometimes decides to go away on my other cheek. My skin is kind of rough and I have a bunch of sickly little white heads on my nose that even the damn Pore Strips wont take off...Damn I sound sexy don't I?? So I am sitting her writing this with some sort of miracle mask on my face, wondering what happened to my youth??